I’ve seen a plethora of pieces passing me on the information super highway bashing sexual women, especially women of color - specifically Black women. Often it’s in the attempt to pump up or encourage the existence of the “good women” who cook, clean and dress conservatively, etc. You know, because only That is respectable behavior for a woman. Others mask it in claiming these are the ingredients of a Queen self actualization and autonomy be damned. I wish I had a nickel for every meme I see shouting down a woman’s choice to twerk. I mean, we know how detrimental dance styles can be on a woman’s entire complex life (sarcasm intended). Never have a seen a dance style kick up so much hatred towards Black women while simultaneously popping off a fun, trendy dance craze for white women.
These types of things represent the heights of hypocrisy that make me shake my head at society. There is a breed of outwardly appearing “respectable” woman that is so desperate for a man; she’ll even knowingly date someone else’s man (and we all know what stellar examples of mates these men turn out to be). I know, she thinks she'll be the one to change him. I’ve seen it up close and personal. There are super successful career women earning multiple six figures who don’t care if a man says he’s in a relationship. She’ll over look that fact just to have a man appear to be by her side even if it’s just for one night at a big event. I’ve heard stories of women willing to essentially trick off their children just so she can pretend on social media to be gratified at finding “the one”. We will act as if a woman with a young child pretending that dating a man that doesn’t want children isn’t borderline child abuse. Your child and you are a packaged deal. Perhaps, she deludes herself into believing he'll just fall right on in love with her little one. I myself work in the realm of sexuality and am naked on worldwide stages, so people assume that I have all types of loose behavior going on. I don’t. Clearly these women are reveling in slackness more than I am. Another difference between women who openly embrace sexuality vs. these women is women who embrace all facets of themselves tend to choose self-respect, self-definition and refuse to settle. These settling women are not to be hated. I believe them to be deeply pitiable. Their up bringing and societal pressures to have a man, any man have done them a great disservice.
Yet, there is no shortage of beating down Nikki Minaj for her sexual marketing genius (yes borrowed straight from the book of Little Kim whether Nikki wants to admit it or not). It’s a marketing ploy that sells and Nikki does it well. I’ve seen Beyoncé berated by men and women alike for being sexual with her own husband who she’s building an empire along side and raising a child with. Even married women get no pass when it comes to embracing the sexual parts of our beings. I’ve seen Will Smith and Jada Pinkett given side eye for granting each other the freedom to be authentic and openly be who they are with each other. It’s as if society wants more couples lying to each other for fear of being judged by one another. It’s fine for some male hip-hop artists to use being a gangster and illegal activities as a marketing ploy. Last I checked it was completely legal for a woman to choose to be happy about the sexual aspects of her being. It is also legal for a woman to have agency over how she displays said sexual aspects of her being. Yet, we keep persecuting women in the court of public opinion for it. Stop worrying about what women outside of your household are teaching children and pay closer attention to what the women in the house are teaching the children in their very charge.
Can we talk about the fact that if a successful woman decides to be a sugar mama, the man is praised or left alone for his “come up”? Yet, if a successful man decides to be a sugar daddy, it is the woman that is beat down for being a gold digger. If a woman is sexually conservative, she’s bashed for being uptight, stiff and boring. If she embraces the fact that sexuality is one aspect of her and it’s being worthy of celebration just as is her intellectual, financial, spiritual, familial self she’s degraded at every turn. It’s as if a woman can’t win for loosing when it comes to being a proud sexual being.
It’s cool if a woman makes self-loathing decisions as long as she dons a business suit or some other conservative garb. Extra points will be given if she goes to church many Sundays. So what if she sits in the pew hand in hand with the man who molested her daughter. No one will make mention of these types of things. No memes made, no poems written only silent, blind eyes turned. I’m really going to need the interwebs to miss me with all this tomfoolery. There need to be more messages directed towards women desperate to claim any man that comes along. They need encouragement towards self-love, self-respect and self worth. They seem to have no grasp of these concepts at all and no one calling them on it to boot. I know more sexually liberated women with a higher sense of self valuation than many of the church going, conservative appearing, low self-esteem having chicks can ever hope to muster. No, not all women who are conservative or church going or successful are self-loathing. I don't think in absolutes. However, I need to see more of the calling out of the truly self-deprecating women in "proper woman" hiding who are and less of the “if you twerk you hate yourself” crap. Forget the wolf in sheep’s clothing. There are self-loathing women in conservative clothing someone needs to write a poem for or make a meme about.
“Caring for myself is not self-indulgence, it is self-preservation and that is an act of political warfare.” – Audre Lorde
There does come a point as an adult where one has to make decisions for oneself despite lessons learned in youth about your value being tied to marriage or a man. Whether one is monogamous or open to an alternative model for relationships, self-love has got to remain job one. What can a child learn from a mother willing to expose them to a man uninterested in taking part in helping to raise them? Let's remember children learn by what parents DO not by what they say. What fulfillment comes from pretending online to be in a whole relationship when one isn’t? If a committed life partner is the goal, what message to the universe does sneaking around with a cheater actually send? There are women in hiding willing to debase themselves. Meanwhile, women who live out loud with all their true colors boldly showing are insulted, mocked and disrespected. Let’s get it together, world. Let’s get it together. We are all beautifully flawed beings trying to do our best to get through life without a playbook. We all make it up as we go along. We get blessings, we get lessons, we adjust and we keep it moving. Stop acting like one kind of journey is more deplorable than another. It insults my intelligence. I can’t.
"Sexuality poorly repressed unsettles some families; well repressed, it unsettles the whole world." - Karl Kraus